Being Desperate

“Most people overestimate what they can achieve in a year and underestimate what they can achieve in ten years.” - Bill Gates, Tony Robbins,.....

The market will seek out your weaknesses, find them, and test them.  One of those weaknesses is desperation.  Especially for full time traders.  When you have to make money, then you are trading from a weakened position.  Its easier to succeed when you want to make money, but don't need to make money.  

I've noticed that I've usually traded better when I've been winning than when I've been losing.  Its because losses affect your mindset differently than wins.  After losses, most traders, including myself, want to recover those losses quickly to get rid of the negative emotions that come from losing.  The bigger the loss, the stronger the urge to recover losses quickly.  This means trading from a desperate position, which is a position of weakness.  

After wins, most traders are not in a hurry to get into the next trade, because they already have a feeling of satisfaction from recent wins.  The bigger the wins, the stronger the feeling of satisfaction and the less urge to rush into the next trade.  This is trading from a position of strength, with no desperation.  

When you are not desperate, you don't take marginal or negative EV trades.  You don't sacrifice the optionality that cash provides by being stuck in those mediocre to bad trades.  When you have free cash, you have the option to take advantage of good opportunities that come along.  Just by not being a desperate trader, you can take advantage of more good opportunities because you aren't stuck in mediocre to bad trades.  

This is why I've noticed a streakiness to the results of not only my trading, but other peoples' trading.  The psychological aspect of this game is extremely important.  But since its so vague, and hard to quantify, it is underestimated and often ignored.  When I first started in this business, I gave little thought to psychology and emotions and mind control.  Its only after several years of experience and observation that you realize how psychology is such a huge part of the game.  

Becoming a full time trader is hard because of the need to make money.  Trying to make money in the markets is similar to trying to get a loan at the bank.  When you have enough money and don't need to make money, then it becomes easier to make money.  When you try to get a loan at the bank, its much easier to get a loan when you have collateral, i.e. real estate, to put up to get a loan.  If you have nothing, the bank doesn't want to lend to you.  If you have a lot, the bank will want to lend to you.  

If you really need to make money from trading, its hard to not  be desperate.  When you have lots of expenses, and no income except from trading, its nearly impossible to trick your mind into thinking from a position of strength when you are in a position of weakness.  Its why those that do make it as full time traders are mostly young traders, who don't have families, who have fewer expenses, and less to lose when blowing up.  The nothing to lose mentality actually can reduce the desperation of having to win.  And if you add risk management to that, then you have a chance to make it in the long run.  

Nothing noteworthy in the COT data or the put/call ratios last week.  Asset managers made small reductions in net long positions in index futures, and dealers reduced some of their net short positions.  Bond yields have stabilized around 4.5%, which is good news for risk asset holders.  It looks like we got the fear based bottom in both bonds and stocks in January after the hotter than expected NFP number along with the pre Trump inauguration jitters on tariffs.  

Last week began with tariff news at the start of the week, and ended with tariff news at the end of the weak.  These headlines ignite 1-2% moves, but they don't last.  The more often you get these headlines, and the more predictable they become, the less they will move the markets.  It appears a lot of selling was front run on Friday afternoon ahead of the potential announcement of reciprocal tariffs.  If tariffs are the worsㅅ thing that can happen to this market, then that's not really bad news.  Tariffs are easily taken off, and their effects are overrated.  Especially if you get all those tax cuts that Trump is looking for.  

Still holding a small long position, not looking to make any big moves here, in this narrowing range.  Although if I didn't have any position, would be taking a long position on any tariff fear induced dips this week.